I don’t really know how I feel about Easter, but then I don’t really know how I feel about God. Or Jesus. I woke, walked the dogs up to Dunkin Donuts for a coffee, signed on to Facebook and scrolled through a long list of status updates proclaiming, “He is risen!”
I was annoyed.
Maybe I’m annoyed because I don’t feel it. I didn’t wake up today overwhelmed by joy, heading out in my best dress to an Easter sunrise service. Maybe I feel like I’ve been left out of this top-secret, uber-happy club. And maybe I find it grating that folks use social media to throw out their lukewarm, half-assed theology.
Or maybe I’m just being a bitch.
In any case, I think I’m missing the point. Why am I so concerned with the faith (or lack thereof) in others? I find it so easy to slip into cynicism, to be overwhelmed by my own doubt and my ire at those who seem to have no questions at all.
This morning I had a cup of coffee on the porch and watched a chipmunk eat… whatever it is that chipmunks eat. I had a long talk with my best friend. I read and I watched Rob Bell. It’s amazing how, by simply recognizing my own slide into uneasy misery, I can stop it. I can cease it and I can turn it around and in the same hour feel utterly overwhelmed with love. And that, I think, is God. Or I’m crazy. Either explanation seems equally plausible.
And when Jesus died on the cross, he died for everybody. Everybody. Everywhere. Every tribe, every nation, every tongue, every people group. Jesus said that when he was lifted up, he would draw all people to himself. All people everywhere. Everybody’s sins on the cross with Jesus. So this reality, this forgiveness, this reconciliation, is true for everybody. Paul insisted that when Jesus died on the cross, he was reconciling ‘all things, in heaven and on earth, to God.’ All things, everywhere. This reality then isn’t something that we make true about ourselves by doing something. It is already true. Our choice is to live in this new reality or cling to a reality of our own making. – Rob Bell
*Karen Schultz on Jesus.